sometimes you fly.... then sometimes you crash...

So I don´t know why but i just got sad... Maybe cuz i realized Im coming home... well, very soon... and Im realizing Im leaving all this, even for only 4 months, and all that-- (someone is getting her nosed peirced next to me and shes squeezng my hand... a little distracting...)

and maybe cuz i have something for someone, but i have to let it go. Even if i think theres still a possibility... i just dont know. He probably thinks i hate him, with the way ive acted.

It like im scared out of my mind of him. But hes like the one person i want to talk to and be around. but he aviods me too... and i just dunno... i was doing so good, then started thinking and thinking and thinking and remembering and ... i dunno...

god help me give it all....

and enjoy every moment i have left befor ei come home..