only real people are going to change the world.

so, the other day, i was driving and i got a call from my friend. we were talkign about stuff that had happened and what people were saying and i realzied something.
getting out of the crazy, conservative, uptight church was probably the best thing that has happened to me in the sense of teaching me who i really am. throughout this whole time in my life, i have gotten a whole new perspective of who jesus was and that he truly was amazing.
ive talked to so many people who have messed up, who are struggling and not sure what to do, and who are doing some pretty crazy things, and ive realized that im exactly where god wants me.
who are we to tell anyone that they are ::inferior:: or they are ::not following christ:: simply becuase they arent doing what we all grew up to believe as the one and only way to live? Im NOT saying that all truth is relative and lets just throw all our standards out the window- cuz it doesnty matter. but who are we to set standards for others?
ive realized that it truly is a relationship. and its a personal relationship, between us and christ. and so many times, we think we have to make converts and tell everyone all about jesus and how to get to heaven and how to live the ::chrsitian life.::
i think that we spend so much time trying to get people to where WE are, that we forget that they are people with struggles and pain too. whereas, when we simply take the time to love them, to hear about what they did last night- without telling them everything we think about it- and just listen to them, thats when christ shows through in us.
i mean, when they threw the lady who had committed adultery at jesus' feet, its not like he stood her up and grilled her about how wrong what she did was and how ::she has a problem with adultery:: NO! he said ::let hte only one with out sin, cast the first stone.::: and he let her go.
people dont need YOU or ME to tell them how horrible they are- hell, we all already know, dont you think- they need to be loved for who they are and know they arent alone.
i guess im just really passionate about this. i mean i see so many people who could impact so many people, but they think their ::ministry:: is simply preaching to the choir- talking to the same people, about the same thing, when most of them already know it.
and im not perfect, im not always strong, and yah- i do mess up. but honestly, if anyone came to me and asked me straight up what i was doing, id tell them, but not so they could bitch off at me, but so i could have a chance to be REAL. i have no shame in where im at, cuz i know that im constantly being renewed day by day, step by step. and how can you have a testimony if you spend all your time worrying about all the things you ::shouldnt do:: and freakign out about ::if:: you mess up. i think satan was really smart- the best way to keep people from christ is to keep them trying to strive for perfection, cuz then they get so caught up in that that they forget the millions who have no freaking idea where to START.
so i guess what seemed like the most horrible thing that could happen two years ago has been the thing that has saved me and my family. and now i can truly say that the more i see of the world, the more people i can hang out with in whatever circumastance, the more times i can be ME, each and everytime, i fall more and more for chrsit and the person he must have been. and who he is today.
if only we could all be so real, so humble and so loving all the time. si o si. (literal translation- yes or yes..)