It has been while...

yah, and life seems to be crazy. I guess you could say that im confused. and stressed. and slightly frustrated. yet, i think im making progress in some areas (regress in others...)

So today i was watching 10 things i hate about you and realized something.. im some ways im like Kat. Sarcastic, hard, and at times unapproachable. My hurts make me lash out at people, and even whne i give people a chance, i stay skeptical. Until they follow me around and prove they love me even when i fight to keep them at a distance.

if i could change one thing about myself it would be the hard walls around my heart.

i can let anyone up to a point, but then it gets to that place where not too many people have been and not too many people care to go. and thats the part i wish i could shout for everyone to hear. i dont like feeling like people dont know me. Who i really am.

but then again, sometimes i have to pause and ask myself...

who am i really...