::sigh:::

today has been a crazy emotional day....

first i got up at 5 am to go to work. and i got there and some other lady already had a key (a member, mind you!) and she had opened the store. and then there were like 4 ladies in there, and they told me that the club was open from last night!! i almost crapped my pants. and then they all started joking and laughing cuz she had the key.

needless to say, dont mess with me at 5 am cuz that makes it a bad start to the day...

oh and a few MONTHS ago, some kid effed up my hand and it still hasnt gotten better, so my fingers have been taped together all day cuz it hurts so bad cuz i re-did-whatever- happened to it a few days ago.

then i worked and went and took a test that i really wasnt quite ready for.

it was snowy and foggy.

all that to say that i got home in a grumpy whiny sad depressed mood.

and micah doesnt have minutes, so i couldnt talk to him on the phone so we IM'd, which was better than nothing. but it made me miss him so much.

sometimes i wonder if it would hurt less to just not talk, then to talk and have him so close, yet so far away from me. especially when i just want to sit and cry and cuddle and talk to.

so i wasnt a trooper today, like im trying to be...

but i guess we all have our days, right??

anyways, so today has been one of those days, and im trying NOT to go to bed, but i guess its 8 so i guess i can.. lol

i love you all.