this is a fuck...
i love disastrous weekends that end in 3 cigarettes, overhearing screaming matches, and feeling sick. it ends in me sitting here at my computer, blaring emery and story of the year...
yah- basically this weekend has been all possible shit hitting the fan at the same time.
It started with plans to chill with nikki that had been in place for a few weeks. she was gonna come over here sunday night. then i found out earlier this week that alyssa was going to tacoma this weekend, so i was gonna ride with her to get there and come back with nikki sunday night. it was gonna be great.
then i got a call from alex and she had this big birthday thing going on this weekend, but because of my previous plans, i had to tell her i couldnt do it. yeah- felt horrible pulling out of super special birthday plans, but i had to. dissapointed best friend number 1.
then another friend called and we were gonna try and get together this weekend also, as she was going to be over here to see someone. nope- had to cancel that too, since i wasnt going to be in town. number 2.
then i found out today i had 2 BIG tests the same day- wednesday. both covering a lot adn i am NOT ready for either of them. but i decided it would be insane, but i was gonna do my best and study when i could. but i was feeling like all my plans were becoming a bad idea what with 2 sleepless (possibly intoxicated) nights adn a 5 am morning the next day...
then nikki called and pulled out. which was good.
BUT because i wasnt gonna go, alyssa wasnt gonna have any extra gas money, which leaves her a little stuck. but as we both discussed the situation, we decided it wasnt going to be a good idea anyways. we are plannign a big trip in two weeks and it will be better then.
but now her and her bf are in her room having an over the phone yelling match and i cant handle it. especially when he has no fucking idea whats going on and is being insanely selfish and is blaming shit on me. numbers 3 and 4.
not to mention cancelling plans with my grandparents for dinner. 5 and 6.
great, jerk. cuz you know whats happening 5 fucking hours away!
im just so upset and frustrated. i feel like shit for letting so many people down. i dont think i have ever let 6 people down in this short of time. maybe i should be in the guiness book of world records.
not to mention, myspace is a bitch adn my computer is being RETARDED.
yah- basically this weekend has been all possible shit hitting the fan at the same time.
It started with plans to chill with nikki that had been in place for a few weeks. she was gonna come over here sunday night. then i found out earlier this week that alyssa was going to tacoma this weekend, so i was gonna ride with her to get there and come back with nikki sunday night. it was gonna be great.
then i got a call from alex and she had this big birthday thing going on this weekend, but because of my previous plans, i had to tell her i couldnt do it. yeah- felt horrible pulling out of super special birthday plans, but i had to. dissapointed best friend number 1.
then another friend called and we were gonna try and get together this weekend also, as she was going to be over here to see someone. nope- had to cancel that too, since i wasnt going to be in town. number 2.
then i found out today i had 2 BIG tests the same day- wednesday. both covering a lot adn i am NOT ready for either of them. but i decided it would be insane, but i was gonna do my best and study when i could. but i was feeling like all my plans were becoming a bad idea what with 2 sleepless (possibly intoxicated) nights adn a 5 am morning the next day...
then nikki called and pulled out. which was good.
BUT because i wasnt gonna go, alyssa wasnt gonna have any extra gas money, which leaves her a little stuck. but as we both discussed the situation, we decided it wasnt going to be a good idea anyways. we are plannign a big trip in two weeks and it will be better then.
but now her and her bf are in her room having an over the phone yelling match and i cant handle it. especially when he has no fucking idea whats going on and is being insanely selfish and is blaming shit on me. numbers 3 and 4.
not to mention cancelling plans with my grandparents for dinner. 5 and 6.
great, jerk. cuz you know whats happening 5 fucking hours away!
im just so upset and frustrated. i feel like shit for letting so many people down. i dont think i have ever let 6 people down in this short of time. maybe i should be in the guiness book of world records.
not to mention, myspace is a bitch adn my computer is being RETARDED.
posted by Sarah Stevens @ 9:29 PM
1 Comments:
At 3:21 PM,
Anna vB said…
again girl... approach life with faith and hope and things will go better for ya. a bit of positive thinking might do a world of good for you!
the world's really not out to get you! there are as many good things in it for you as there are for me.
remember what our parents used to say to us? "attitude is... everything". yeah, i'm beginning to believe they were right ;)
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