Why bad things happen to good people....

Wh y bad things happen to good people....

So as i drove through the wonderfully boring desert of earstern washington yesterday, i had a epifany and revelation... Theres the saying :::be careful what you wish for, cuz you just might get it...::: I thought through my life in the last year or 2 and thought back at the things i asked god for and the things i have learned and walked through adn that i am still walking right now. after everything that happened with pscc, i made a promise to myself and to god. i promised that i would never be a hypocrite. i told myself that i would never speak to someone about something i could not relate to, something i had not lived my self. I would never try to tell someone how to fix their lives if i had not already been there and gotten through the fire. and i thought also on the visions and goals i had for my life. where do i wanna be in 10 years? what kind of people do i want to reach out to? is my heart for the church and to minister in there? is my heart to work with the kids whove grown up in the church? no. not at all. my heasrt adn passion is to work with kids who have been abused and neglected. to work with people who will never be accepted by a church. people who the only way to point them to god is to have relationship and to live your life for all to see. maybe thats why i dont run from questions about the shit im pulling and the things im doing right now. people who will never even give the time of day to a ::perfect person::. those people. the lost and the hurting who have no idea where to turn. and so i come back to my vow never to be a hypocrite. to be with the people on my heart, i have to walk that path. i have to hit rock bottom, and be pulled out. and maybe, just maybe, thats why ive been in so many situations that could have been potentially very dangerous and have always been protected some how. thats why bad things happen to good people. because we are being prepared for something, we are all destined for something great, somethign life changing, and UNIQUE. the path i have to walk to get where god wants me is going to be very different than yours. explains why some people never struggle with certain things, or someone can do one things without stumbling, while the same thing can have huge consequences for someone else. as i remeber right, Christ was destined to save mankind. well, didnt he have to become one of us? didnt he have to walk the same life that we are all walking? He couldnt have saved us if he had stayed in heaven. He never could have captured and won our hearts if he couldnt whisper to me the very things, in my very words that i am walking right now. because he was here. he is here. so to answer the question i have been asking myself over and over... do i believe that i am a masterpiece? and the answer to that question is yes. I am being transformed and prepared to touch a dying and lost world. i am being taught the only way i know- by experience. what it means to feel so far from god that i am lost and cant find a way out. Im learning what it means to lose something you had held on to and everyone looked up to you as a role model for, because i lost it. im learning how to rebuild your life, when everything seems torn from beneath you. what its like to have every belief you hold challenged and tested. to have your childhood ideals robbed and destroyed. to lose friends, to lose love, to lose yourself. to hit the rock bottom, and not even know where to start to climb out. but i know that this isnt gonna last forever, and that someday, people will remeber my name and not because ill be famous and it was written in lights across buildings, but because i will be a real girl who lived her testimony for all to see.