i hate boys.
and crushes.
especially when its on some guy that lives 6 hours away and has a gf.
its was supposed to be a one time thing. it was supposed to be a ::hi.:: and walk away thing.
but its not. and it wasnt. cuz we both fell hard.
now its emotional and its on both sides. he called me crying cuz he didnt want me to leave.
and ive said ::dont even go there til your single.::: but that doesnt make things much easier for either of us.
why cant i just make the right decisions? stay away from the silly boys. why does the whole ::not safe:: thing suck me in everytime? (btw- not safe means addicting, slightly dangerous in a crazy ballsy sorta way, its careless and risky. their eyes have that edge thats just captivating.)
now im trippin. but i cant let myself cuz im in a situation that is not good. you dont mess with taken people, cuz thats drama. but i got myself in and only time will get me out.
sigh.
especially when its on some guy that lives 6 hours away and has a gf.
its was supposed to be a one time thing. it was supposed to be a ::hi.:: and walk away thing.
but its not. and it wasnt. cuz we both fell hard.
now its emotional and its on both sides. he called me crying cuz he didnt want me to leave.
and ive said ::dont even go there til your single.::: but that doesnt make things much easier for either of us.
why cant i just make the right decisions? stay away from the silly boys. why does the whole ::not safe:: thing suck me in everytime? (btw- not safe means addicting, slightly dangerous in a crazy ballsy sorta way, its careless and risky. their eyes have that edge thats just captivating.)
now im trippin. but i cant let myself cuz im in a situation that is not good. you dont mess with taken people, cuz thats drama. but i got myself in and only time will get me out.
sigh.
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