Today at the Ranch...
im almost at a loss for words... it was a crazy day of memories, news from people, and fun crazy horse stuff. plus realizing a few things about myself...
first of all, i heard a lot of stuff about whats happened in the last year that both florred me and broke my heart adn yet gave me so much hope that God can and does change things in people and uses our worst nightmares and changes them for good and strengthens us.
and also seeing my boss was so awesome, hes changed so much in teh last year and it was awesome to see him and for once, the look of pain and hurt was gone. and while i know things arent perfect, i know that hes trying and i really believe that theres freedom in teh journey, whether or not youve completely made it to the final destination.
and also i realized that god has created me to be a person who i never quite saw myself in before... one of those light bulb moments that make you say :::OOOHHH!!!! THATS why i do that!!::: and not in a bad way at all. i realized god has created me to be a very strong leader and im a very strong person, but i realized my gifts are that of an encourager and a supporter. i dont want the spotlight 24 7 and i dont need it. God has called me to be the person who sees the stregths in OTHERs and call those out adn encourage them to be who THEY are created to be. i realize that im called to be a listener and a in some ways an anchor and balance for the people god brings to me. i realized that god has brought so many people into my life and tho at times i feel overshadowed and sometimes feel unheard, but im the person that god uses to hold them steady (not in a bragging way at all!!) and the person that says ::settle down its not that big of a deal, let it go....::: basically the Doolah in my friends life that reminds them to breathe when things are intense and they forget.
its weird, but im realizing more and more, that i am soo laid back and so happy go lucky sometimes. and i remeber being younger and it would drive me nuts that i wasnt ::the best::: or that i wasnt the super popular girl that was upfront and i didnt know the most about anything, but know i see that its how i was created, and thats who i need to embrace. and i love that about me. Now that i see it.
anyways, right now im in a big ::sarah discovery:: journey.... im a lot deeper than i ever thought i was...
first of all, i heard a lot of stuff about whats happened in the last year that both florred me and broke my heart adn yet gave me so much hope that God can and does change things in people and uses our worst nightmares and changes them for good and strengthens us.
and also seeing my boss was so awesome, hes changed so much in teh last year and it was awesome to see him and for once, the look of pain and hurt was gone. and while i know things arent perfect, i know that hes trying and i really believe that theres freedom in teh journey, whether or not youve completely made it to the final destination.
and also i realized that god has created me to be a person who i never quite saw myself in before... one of those light bulb moments that make you say :::OOOHHH!!!! THATS why i do that!!::: and not in a bad way at all. i realized god has created me to be a very strong leader and im a very strong person, but i realized my gifts are that of an encourager and a supporter. i dont want the spotlight 24 7 and i dont need it. God has called me to be the person who sees the stregths in OTHERs and call those out adn encourage them to be who THEY are created to be. i realize that im called to be a listener and a in some ways an anchor and balance for the people god brings to me. i realized that god has brought so many people into my life and tho at times i feel overshadowed and sometimes feel unheard, but im the person that god uses to hold them steady (not in a bragging way at all!!) and the person that says ::settle down its not that big of a deal, let it go....::: basically the Doolah in my friends life that reminds them to breathe when things are intense and they forget.
its weird, but im realizing more and more, that i am soo laid back and so happy go lucky sometimes. and i remeber being younger and it would drive me nuts that i wasnt ::the best::: or that i wasnt the super popular girl that was upfront and i didnt know the most about anything, but know i see that its how i was created, and thats who i need to embrace. and i love that about me. Now that i see it.
anyways, right now im in a big ::sarah discovery:: journey.... im a lot deeper than i ever thought i was...
posted by Sarah Stevens @ 10:07 PM
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